......

Next time I either not to go to sleep or I just don't make that in such a hurry...







It's too complicated orz

Zzzz

花了一晚上網逛遊

尋找資源

查閱條款要求

確實是值得的......



近年網絡科技越趨發達

空間和流量等各方面的資源也越來越多

公司間為了競爭

當然是以提升質量和全方位服務為方針

想當然爾

相對地「免費」用戶也因此能從旁得益



對於一些純粹個人興趣而使用的小用戶來說

免費服務的質素雖然一定及不上付費用戶

不過不用特別消費　省下一些支出

而且這個份量的使用率是足夠有餘的了

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昨天in了一份行政助理

大概是因為大家也是教會人

就以比較溫和的傾談法

結果變相成了我的前途建議會= ="



也因為這個原因

回想到以前的一些點子和想法

再一次感到設立個人網的需要...




行動是關鍵

正在學習中

不過現在困難不像是在如何去做

而是在時間調整 + 動力方面= =

我好像當沒有一件穩定的「工作」(學校/job)在手時

就很易變得漫無目標

想東想西（不論是否想到「東西」）

然後時間就這樣過去。。。

Comparing with the memory from far away...

I feel that it should be what it's like in the group as happened today--

learning more during discussion

starting from asking some "stupid" and "(seeming?lol) smart" questions

and we look into the bible even more carefully and intently

with the help of the group leader and the "teacher" (Vincent haha)

which in the result

will help us understand more then we expect...

and that was really good...



I enjoyed tonight's discussion

haha

Decision

V

Choices

V

Semi-decision

V

Choices X 2

V

Semi-decision

V

Choices X 3

V

...



OK Good

I admit

I'm totally

Awfully

NOT good at deciding things

since I'm (seems to be) all ok with any of these choices.



Not to mention

especially when there are voices surrounding me

giving what they think it's good...orz



but in the past experiences

if I surrounded in some kind of decision "I've made"

after listening to some opinion

and still having a doubt deep within my heart

which I may or may not notice...

most of them would then proved to be wrong XD!!! Yeah! Hee-ha

Well

So

What now?



It's good to get so many "choices"

But are they really good to me?

To "try"?

Or is it wrong for me not to try

"stupidly", "lazily", "sitting back and relax"

just letting it go

if there's any chance

finishing the bachelor in the same school as now...

which I am doubtful if I have enough GPA to go straight into year 2...



OK right

It's just that I'm asking for a reason to type that resume and that xyz letter........*lazily lying on the floor* *joking*


Ha.....................................= =



p.s. Well I'm fine

No hard feelings

I'm fine, I'm still calm

just that I really don't know what to do

that's all

這事其實已經拖了一學期有多了
最終還得面對...

HD畢業了

那接著怎樣？



網頁看得眼花撩亂

然後妳又把報紙的XXYY課程遞過來

在香港？回去繼續？

現在其實是我想怎樣？還是妳想我怎樣？

雖然我知道這並非妳的原意

可是那個行動和感覺著實有那種意思

無論理性的我再怎麼為妳說話也好

那種感覺擺脫不掉

不說是因為我也沒有肯定的答案

而妳卻急著想立即就要

奈何

我也只有乾著急的份



課程

看得再多也是無助於找尋答案。呵。。。



這幾天惰性又回來了

果然沒事做就又自動波變廢人呀

感覺太差勁　差勁頂透了

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頹

這個壞習慣其實已經有逐漸改變中

可是反覆無常

跌的時候還是比站起來的多

媽呀

別又在這個非常時期讓我再DOWN下去

當我拜託妳了